Let's talk seriously today ok?
My life hasn't panned out the way I always thought it would. Are you raising your eyebrows at me a bit? Let me explain...
When I was 17, I knew I wasn't ready to be married, that's for sure. I was way way way toooooo immature. Now I was 17 when I graduated, I turned 18 that following Summer. At that time I was getting ready to go off to college. I had applied for a few schools and been accepted to every one of them. I wanted like anything to go to Oklahoma State University in Stillwater, OK, but something held me back.
I'm an only child so there was that factor. My dad got sick my sophomore year of high school and OSU was far away, there was that factor. I was dating a guy, we were just at a year of dating, there was that factor. And I was flat out scared. I didn't know anyone who went to OSU although I had my heart set on going there.
Well all my fears won out and I went to MSU. (technically SMSU, it changed the August after I graduated but if I tell any high schooler know I went to SMS they look at me like I have a horn growing out my nose.) To tell you how bad I wanted to go to OSU, when we went to SMS to enroll me, I was crying. My parents said, fine we'll head to Stillwater and enroll you there. I told them no, I'll stick it out the semester, maybe even the year and transfer.
Well then I made friends and you know the rest of the story... I didn't transfer.
Skip forward 4 years. I was about to graduate college, I was 21 years old. I had dreams.
- Graduate college.
- Get a job teaching High School Agriculture.
- Be married by the time I was 23.
- Go back and get my Masters.
- Own a house.
- Own a new car.
I did graduate college, 4 years baby!
I finally got a job, but not having anything to do with Agriculture, not that I didn't try. I kind of live in a weird area.
I didn't get married until I was 27.
I still plan on getting my masters but I'm not there yet.
I finally bought a house with my husband when I was 26 almost 27.
I got my new car in 2011.
I swore I'd never marry a guy with a kid or one that had been previously married. Way toooooo much baggage. Boy I sure ate crow there.
But boy, did God have a better plan for my life than I did. Hindsight is 20/20 for sure!
I'm not going to lie to you, our life isn't perfect. No one's is... don't be fooled! But, it's pretty perfect for us.
I have a lot of friends who kind of fall into the same boat I was in... when will he come, will he ever get here, am I being looked over, etc. Heck at 25 years old, I thought I was broken. I thought no one would want me.
Basically I say this to tell you that there is a perfect plan for you. Hang on, enjoy the ride, and we'll all be here rooting for your great story!